another question answered

Actually I wanted to start my last blog with reference to a song that is somehow symptomatic at how I feel at this stage. But then it grew into such an important element that I decided to devote its own space to that train of thought.

The song‘s title is »Fragezeichen« - which is the German word for »question mark« - written by German singer songwriter Purple Schulz.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSWm9bgkidE

I admire Purple Schulze‘s courage to write and fight for a song like that. It‘s about how a person might feel having dementia or related illnesses like Alzheimer‘s disease. During the promotion tour radio stations all over Germany refused to play the song because its content got rated too gloomy and dull - not popular enough for the »happy-world« radio stations. But various German Alzheimer support groups now feature the song/ video on their websites. Check out the comments on Purple‘s Youtube video page for »Fragezeichen« to get an impression of what the song does to people. Literally thousands of Germans looking after family members or friends dealing with issues like that are so thankful for that song because it helps them to deal  with those day to day challenges.

To me the chorus of that song reflects in music and in words how I feel at this stage of my transition:

question marks

a lonely passenger on a lost ship in a raging storm with the fear of getting lost

with all those question marks

I don‘t know who I am and where I‘m at  - I‘d be happy if I knew where to go

To me the music reflects the yearning and desperate need to be sure about the direction I want my life to take and the hopes and dreams I need and want fulfilled - to finally be happy! But also the insecurity that comes with all plans  that are about to change my life so drastically.



But from Harald Wessbecher (http://www.haraldwessbecher.de/) I learned that in the end - or (I should have) in the first place - I need to follow the voice of my heart, the only giver of advice who knows what is best for me - coming from the power of creation of all things.