time to say good-bye part 2 ...... and WELCOME

Time to say goodbye part 2 … and WELCOME to my new beginning

Life and creation have been so, so,so awesome, wonderful, breathtaking and fulfilling to me.

My oldest daughter finished first in her class in 2013/14, got awarded loads of prizes and has come up with one of the best grade point averages this school has ever seen – though it was her that put in all the work and performed awesome at every school that she has been to - while we travelled through Germany following my job offers – she managed to top it all off with that amazing performance – and I can't be but proud of her although I had no part in her learning and preperations for zillions of exams. 

She did all this next to becoming a well liked and loved skiing instructor over the 13/14 skiing season. She also got awarded a full scholarship for an exchange student year in the USA due to her excellent grades and performances at the respective interviews. She will be leaving us this week and I wish her an awesome year that exceeds her wildest dreams – you made that possible honey, enjoy every second of it! I am so proud of you for turning your dreams into reality!!!!!

I wanted for my kids to grow up and get the chance to live their life – since each of them is the most important person in each respective life. That also includes backing up decisions I wish they would not take. My youngest son moved to his mother in the beginning of August – my transition obviously playing a big role in his decision. I love you with all of my heart my youngest one, and wherever and whenever you need a home, you know you will always have one wherever I am. I hope for your wishes and expectations to come true and should that fail or should you be in need of shelter you will always have open arms to run into.

My middle children take on the world in their own way, and I know there will be so many occasions and situations coming where I will be proud of them and totally love them for who they are.

It is such great pleasure and a huge privilege to watch them growing up and being successful in their own way.

I handed in my applications for SRS, trachea shave and voice chord surgery with my health care provider on June 2nd. I haven't heard from them for over 2 months.

Then I got a call from a former collegue of mine – she asked me if I had found a sponsor for my SRS. I told her that so far I am still waiting for help. Then she said she has someone who would sponsor me. Total silence on the phone. She asked: Mona you still there?? After I regained composure I said: your not kidding me, are you?

She said: no, it's true, if you want to this person will help you.

You need to know I „put in an order with the universe“ in late winter, so I was sure something was about to happen this year, but when actually confronted with it it just left me speechless and I was wondering in awe at the love of the universe towards those who ask.

Then things all happened really quickly – within a couple of days a flight was booked, a surgery spot with Dr. Chettawut opened up, childcare for my kids during that time got arranged and off to Thailand I was.

You need to know that usually neither Dr. Suporn nor Dr. Chettwaut have some last minute surgery options. At this moment a client had shifted her surgery towards Christmas and the universe opened up that spot for me. I had SRS surgery on August 1st. Dr. Chettwaut promised to give his best and he kept every single word!!!!!

He ran into the challenge of clearing scar tissue in my lower abdomen – which would have left me with hardly any vaginal depth – so he did his best and performed a 9 hour surgery on me.

4 days post-op I got transferred to the hotel for after care and before that, the main packing came off.

On August 7th the vaginal packing came of and on August 9th th catheter got removed. My healing process is going well and steady.

Dr. Chettawut deserves my deepest gratitude for his wonderful, compassionate work and the dedication he shares with every single patient of his. He and his staff are outstanding people, always friendly, helpful and very caring.

When I had consultation with Dr. Chettawut I realized how gentle yet firm all of his fingers worked while examining me. And I knew in an instant that I am in the best hands possible – if they manage to make me move and turn THIS WAY now, he will perform an awesome surgery – and so he did.

Although the body parts are still swollen I so love what I can see, feel and touch and it will get better day by day.

Dilation now is my responsibility and it is absolutely essential to strictly follow the timetable of dilation, otherwise I will loose my vaginal depth and even the vagina will close completely due to the body's wound contraction efforts, which are counteracted by dilation.

A lot of very unusual body sensations are waiting to be discovered and adjusted to and it takes a bit of time for the brain to rewire my body's new landscape.

So the first time I wanted to pee I was astounded because it felt that the point of fluid leaving my body was where it had been before, yet the penis was gone – and the sensation was so peculiar that all of a sudden the pee was leaving my body somewhere completely different. But it gets better and it feels more in accordance with my new body parts now and it is so wonderful to finally have things happen so everything feels right and familiar to me.

When the nurse cleans the outsides of my new genitals I can feel how sensate I am – and let me tell you - there is PLENTY of sensation down there!!! Again just as Dr. Chettawut promised.

To finally say good-bye was easy and just a natural step to take after all that has happened so far.

No regrets in any way – just a huge thankfulness towards my body and former genitals to do this transformation for me, to get me happy and to make me live my life now – my Mona life.

And so WELCOME my Mona life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And WELCOME to my Mona child within me, which I had the privilege to give birth to – another surprise the universe had for me – so another dream of mine came true: giving birth to a child - just in a different way than I expected that to happen – and I can easily deal with my post-op care, because I know what was brought to life – just like any mother manages to go through the things she has to face while giving birth.

So this Mona life will be happy, fulfilling, wonderful and exciting beyond believe.

Thank you universe, thank you life, thank you love, thank you to creation for getting me to where I am today.