Yes, it really is time to say good-bye to my past.By now the results of HRT have changed my body noticeably - also some major surgeries are on their way in the near future.
So it is time to say good-bye and to say a big thank you - to my male prison - the body that has served me for years, which unfortunately was the wrong one to be born in. I am thankful for all there is, all the changes my body is willing to go through for me, to see me happy and have me were I truly and really belong. I will have my second rhinoplasty on Tuesday February 25th - performed by a professor I trust truly and deeply and who has been helpful and generous beyond belief.
I know deep inside that this step will mark a new stage on the road to my female body.
I won‘t be the same person as before - my changes will become more visible and more apparent to everyone around me. I can sense that it will affect me in a much stronger and deeper way than anything else I have done so far in the process of my transition.
A huge »Thank You« for all the people who support me with good thoughts, prayers, good wishes and who wish me good luck for all the surgeries needed.
I am very excited, still at the same time I am stepping on unknown territory - knowing it‘s the right thing to do - and having a strange feeling at the same time - so I just close my eyes and trusting in fate and the power of life – take one step at a time, putting one foot in front of the other - to see what life‘s got in store for me.I am so grateful and thankful that most of my kids chose to walk that path along with me - and hopefully, the one that has to deal with my transition a lot more than the others will come around as time passes - I love you all so much - you mean the world to me.
Rhinoplasty is now agood 10 days past. From what I can see so far it has truly been successful this time - so I owe a very big "Thank-You" to Prof. MD Staudenmaier, ENT professional plastic surgeon in Munich who not only put into reality my visions of what my nose needs to be like but who also managed to revise all the deficits the last rhinoplasty left on and in my face and bones.
I also owe the very talented photographer Heike Sickert-Kuchenbecker a big hats-off since she managed to portray me before my rhinoplasty in such honesty that I‘m truly baffled on how she manages to bring out the essentials of every person she takes photos of.
As I prepare for my next major steps my mind keeps whirling around the SRS (sexual reassignment surgery) procedure.
I find myself preparing for this major step of my transition mentally every day in thoughts and meditations ....... I so desperately pray it will happen soon ....
